Shelly Early
BioEnergetic Wellness Consultant
Providing An Alternative Approach To Healing
A Natural Approach to Healing
I warmly welcome You to my website!
Thank you for your courage to investigate how BioEnergetic Therapeutics can complement your other pillars for wellbeing. I sincerely applaud your self-commitment and sense of knowing that unrealized possibilities are awaiting within you.
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BioEnergetic Therapeutics is a non-invasive practice with a holistic perspective that converges the art of ancient concepts with cutting edge science. Integrating principles from Traditional Chinese Medicine and Quantum Biology, analysis and techniques are employed to alleviate patterns of BioEnergetic stress to promote optimal health.
All undesired symptoms and issues are seen through the lens of the underlying BioEnergetic blueprint that makes you, You! When there is coherency between system and parts, the sum total is greater than the parts and you feel flow in your life. The essence of the whole person–mind, body and spirit is considered. Significant improvement to wellness and performance can be experienced when making a BioEnergetic shift to greater balance, resulting in building body coherence and resilience.
When you are ready, let's get started together on this journey of self-healing and unlock your fullest potential!
BioEnergetics therapeutics
Throughout my entire adult life, I have personally pursued various holistic healing options for managing my own erratic health. My interest in learning more about Natural BioEnergetics was piqued by the unique, yet systematic approach of incorporating many good techniques, vibrational tools, nutritional and supplemental information available coupled with ascertaining what the individual's needs are at any given time. I am attracted to plausible scientific means of healing to be inclusive of any new things learned. In other words, the modality stays in boundaries to keep us operating safely, while not being too narrow that would mutually exclude advancement.
I had observed over the years that what worked wonders for some did nothing for others or even what formerly worked, no longer achieved the same results. I was drawn to the economy and efficiency of using only what the body needed to heal itself. While there are certain gold standards in how to take care of oneself, my conclusion is that there is no perfect method or cure for everybody or even the same formula working over a lifetime.
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BioEnergetic Therapeutics can incorporate an unlimited number of concepts, time-tested proven techniques and tools, along with newly discovered ones, to achieve balance and support. As a BioEnergetic Specialist, I find it vastly stimulating in my practice to help others objectively understand their needs and find a holistic path to heal themselves.
My Mission
Empower & Balance
As your Wellness Consultant, I am honored to work in partnership with you on your path to greater well-being.
My advanced speciality in BioEnergetic Therapeutics manifests in the juxtaposition of empathy and objectivity coupled with knowledge and experience.
Each session is highlighted by a detailed analysis of underlying causatives intrinsically contributing to stress and unwanted symptoms so that we can pinpoint how to move you forward to establish balanced functioning and healthier life patterns.
BioEnergetic education is my passion; thus, each session is infused with knowledge that helps you connect body awareness and understanding. It is my desire to help you feel empowered with insight on how interconnected and powerfully your mind and body work in tandem with BioEnergetic information that instructs you how to be and function.
Balancing chronic and intractable conditions takes a certain level of finesse and intuition. I have honed this sensitivity to understand pervasive, core patterns of imbalance that produce ill-health to help you transform with gentle non-invasive methods.
" By creating compassionate heart space with my clients,
I can help them safely integrate the hurtful past
so that they can aspire to a hopeful future and live in a peaceful presence."
My Experience
EDUCATION AND TRAINING
dedicated practitioner of BioEnergetic Therapeutics
professionally since 2003
My goal is to offer you a comprehensive protocol that will attune your body's innate wisdom for wellbeing. I strive to update my education and add to my experience with advanced reading and study in many disciplines of science, health and wellness with a particular targeted interest on stress and trauma, as well as the BioEnergetic Field.
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Using a multi-pronged approach, my BioEnergetic protocol clarifies the relational patterns of stress in your life with the possible causative impact to your BioEnergetic structure and consequential nervous system dysregulation manifesting in your physical form and function. In other words, the nervous system dysregulation is where the rubber meets the road. It is where true understanding of psychological or physiological distress exists, identified as undesirable symptoms. Decoding stress requires a consilient framework to see the whole picture so that energy is not wasted to maintain status quo, or worse, altogether missing reasons for diminishing function.
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Precision execution of BioEnergetic Therapeutics can
reset you to be good as new!
My practice of BioEnergetic Therapeutics has a systematic structure to analyze stress in a variety of ways so that you can understand the relation of stress to any disconnected parts that resonate to you as blocks to your wellbeing and performance. The scaffold is maintained while being flexible enough to give us many options for personalization to your needs and whatever else you are benefiting from for health management.
Natural BioEnergetics™
My formal training began in Natural BioEnergetics™ with certificates of completion for all ten modules in the kinesiology coursework, plus an additional course called GeoBiology where we explored how the earth and environmental energy affects our wellbeing for either good or bad. This intensive training included experiential, hands-on practice with each module. Today, I practice a personalized, advanced structure of BioEnergetic Therapeutics. For further reading about Bioenergetics and the courses, please see:
Bachelor Degree of Family Counseling
with a Minor in Social Sciences
Having earned this degree in family counseling has helped me acquire proficiency in fields such as marriage, family harmony, human relationships, motivating others, counseling, ethics, family services, psychology, philosophy, culture, and other areas.
licensed certified mentor in the HeartMath™
Building Personal Resilience Program™
Trauma-Sensitive HeartMath™
Certified Professional Practitioner
As a licensed certified mentor in the HeartMath™, you can consider me your coach training you to transform stress with intelligent energy management by using simple, but profound self-regulation skills. The techniques are carefully crafted to empower your ability to pause in the face of activating stress and how to neutralize triggers for better response and outcomes. In time, your resilience capacity will build and sustain your energy reserves.
Expanding on your practice, we tailor each session to incorporate the practice of specific HeartMath™ techniques to refocus emotionally in connection with your specific needs, helping us identify unnecessary energy expenditures. As you learn deepening practices, tapping into the grounding power of your heart intelligence will give you a true sense of safety and guidance. A consistent practice of these easy-to-use techniques will build a carry-over effect for inner composure, increased heart-brain coherency (heart rate variability), and what is more, restructure your neural architecture, literally rewiring your brain and changing your life!
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Scientifically studied HeartMath™ techniques round out our multi-faceted approach to help you build inner poise, recharge your inner battery and be resilient preparing for and navigating stress. And, what is more, the science tells us that the HeartMath™ System has proven to significantly reduce key health-risk factors while improving key markers in both physical and psychological health.
Working with clients with persistent, pervasive symptoms floating around in the body has taught me that these indicators of ill health are actually connected to maladaptive life patterns, frozen states of being and areas of significant disconnect. To be more precise about what is happening, these intractable problems are fallout from dysregulation in the nervous system from unprocessed emotions in association with subjective experiences of trauma and overwhelming or accumulated stressful circumstances. It is my desire to support the journey from the suffering and disconnection caused by trauma towards the path of healing and resilience of the heart. Creating compassionate heart space with my clients, we co-regulate for the safe integration of the hurtful past so that they can aspire to a hopeful future and live in a peaceful presence.
I am recognized as a Trauma-Sensitive HeartMath™ Certified Professional Practitioner having completed the course called The Resilient Heart™. The course provided a rich expanse of information and expertise across topics including the neurophysiology of trauma, developmental trauma, collective trauma, intergenerational trauma and how to integrate HeartMath™ skills into therapeutic modalities to treat trauma. Together this training, combined with my years of professional practice and personal experience of traumatic and complex loss can give you the benefit of trauma-informed care within a therapeutic relationship to build resilience and capacity for emotional regulation associated with traumatic stress.
To acquire heart rate variability technology or watch videos about HeartMath™ or to read the extensive research in the field of the heart-brain connection and the numerous benefits to psychophysiological health, please see:
Solex AO Scan™ Technology
With each session, my clients are offered an advantageous education about themselves through the use of Solex AO Scan™ Technology, a comprehensive program for measuring and optimizing frequencies. Communicating with the body via subtle bio-frequencies and electromagnetic signals, AO Scan™ identifies the areas that may be out of balance. Pinpointing those areas that may need assistance, we can suggest the proper lifestyle changes to optimize your health and reach a state of harmony and balance. This supports us with valuable information on the current state of your body’s frequencies, track changes and much more!
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Over the past 20 years, Solex has compiled a database of over 120,000 unique blueprint frequencies. These blueprints are similar to notes of music—they are recordings of the cell's natural, optimal state. By comparing the body's current state with these blueprints, we are able to encourage the body into balance, which can restore harmony and your sense of well-being. The methods used in the AO Scan™ Technology are supported by a plethora of research from peer-reviewed publications, independent research analysis and practical experiences. It is based on technology used by Astronauts, Cosmonauts, physicians, chiropractors, and naturopaths in numerous countries around the world with reported success.
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With the AO Scan™ you will receive scans run remotely from the comfort of your home that provide immediate results with comprehensive reports. There are several different scans that can be performed for you:
Quick Scan, Inner Voice, Vitals Scan, Body Systems Scan, Comprehensive Scan and S.E.F.I.
If you would like to learn more about the benefit of frequencies and how it works, obtain any Solex products, or if you would like to benefit from daily restorative care by subscribing to become a Preferred Customer or Quantum Living Advocate, please see my page at:
FACILITATING HEALING
Coupling my years of experience in BioEnergetic Therapeutics with HeartMath™ Mentorship and Trauma-Sensitivity training, the use of Solex AO™ technology and my educational background in Family Counseling, I have a solid foundation to listen objectively with my heart. I will help you to identify roadblocks that are disrupting the ease in your life because I sincerely want to help you connect the dots for what is happening in your body. Together we can charter a compassionate path that will transform you from living with struggles to living with flow!
Intuitive and Analytical Perspective
The particular strength I have as your BioEnergetic Specialist is my intuitive ability to pinpoint patterns of contributing factors related to your current health and then link those aspects to outdated programming that operates beneath the surface of conscious awareness. Initially, those core patterns were magnificently intelligent for your survival, but now they present as maladaptive behaviors that contribute to unnecessary stress, dysfunction and dis-ease. I am eager to get started assisting you in objectively analyzing your BioEnergetic work that will help alleviate or make improvements to any areas of undesirable issues and achieve your desired goals!
In our BioEnergetic Therapeutics sessions, we can free up available energy and gain greater efficiency for functioning, provide some context and resolution to those causative factors that contribute to your current stress and initiate nervous system healing. With my assistance, you can also feel empowered with the information needed to implement greater self-care, leverage heart intelligence to make wiser choices, plug up energy draining stress that reduces vitality and help you to build resilience capacity.
I Am On Your team!
While I do consider myself a seasoned, skillful facilitator, the healing power is within you. Together we work to unlock what is essential to achieve your objectives and bring about greater coherency in your life. I am happy to join your team of support for any maintenance or refinement you desire, but you do not need to expect that your future wellness has to be dependent solely upon me. It is a joy inspiring my clients to be their best self!
Foremost in Facilitating Healing
is not to ignore huge aspects of who you are...
Diving into the big area of neglect, let me say that I often hear people denigrate emotionality in themselves and of others, as if it is a weakness to feel anything. Let's get real about this. In truth, the molecules of emotions are drivers in our immediate performance, overall functionality and how we relate to our own state of being, as well as, how we relate to others. Grasping that emotions are actually part of our physiology is a giant step forward in coherent care. Preventive and curative health measures are enhanced when we become more self-aware of what's draining us. If we want to significantly improve our wellbeing, then we start to take account of how we feel and learn how to self-regulate our emotions. The effort will reward you with a big pay-off providing your life with better flow and direction!
Which way do you want your emotions to make you feel?
Emotions are comprised of compounds in constant motion that create chemical and electrical changes moment-by-moment, directly influencing the precursors to over 1400 biochemical processes either for good or bad. They indicate to us information regarding our inner and outer worlds in relation to our needs, boundaries and preferences, which prompts us to make adjustments to maintain harmony.
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We relate to the experience of negative, draining emotions as our struggles or strains. Conversely, positive, renewing emotions are experienced as flow or fluidity in life. When emotions are not regulated, but rather are dismissed, suppressed or misunderstood, they then consequently surface inappropriately. Habitually ignoring one of our body's main sources of intel to us over a lifetime, ironically, is a key contributor for creating weakness in both body and mind. The body experiences wear and tear or healing and wellbeing in direct relation to how we uniquely respond to emotional pressure and tension. It is not so much what we experience, but rather how we react to it, e.g. the little everyday hassles like rush-hour traffic to the bigger life-changing experiences.
Coming out of the Covid-19 Pandemic, it can be observed that we are experiencing a collective traumatization and that our nervous systems are much more rigid or chaotic from a uniquely globalizing stress. Perhaps, like me, you have noticed the narrowing window of tolerance, offloading of pain and the inability to function as we once did. The good news is that our nervous systems can rewire and post-traumatic growth rewards unexpected potential within us.
FACILITATING HEALING
Coupling my years of experience in BioEnergetic Therapeutics with HeartMath™ Mentorship and Trauma-Sensitivity training, the use of Solex AO™ technology and my educational background in Family Counseling, I have a solid foundation to listen objectively with my heart. I will help you to identify roadblocks that are disrupting the ease in your life because I sincerely want to help you connect the dots for what is happening in your body. Together we can charter a compassionate path that will transform you from living with struggles to living with flow!
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Foremost in Facilitating Healing
is not to ignore huge aspects of who you are...
Diving into the big area of neglect, let me say that I often hear people denigrate emotionality in themselves and of others, as if it is a weakness to feel anything. Let's get real about this. In truth, the molecules of emotions are drivers in our immediate performance, overall functionality and how we relate to our own state of being, as well as, how we relate to others. Grasping that emotions are actually part of our physiology is a giant step forward in coherent care. Preventive and curative health measures are enhanced when we become more self-aware of what's draining us. If we want to significantly improve our wellbeing, then we start to take account of how we feel and learn how to self-regulate our emotions. The effort will reward you with a big pay-off providing your life with better flow and direction!
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Which way do you want your emotions to make you feel?
Emotions are comprised of compounds in constant motion that directly create chemical and electrical changes moment-by-moment, directly influencing the precursors to over 1400 biochemical processes either for good or bad. They indicate to us information regarding our inner and outer worlds in relation to our needs, boundaries and preferences, which prompts us to make adjustments to maintain harmony.
We relate to the experience of negative, draining emotions as our struggles or strains. Conversely, positive, renewing emotions are experienced as flow or fluidity in life. When emotions are not regulated, but rather are dismissed, suppressed or misunderstood, they then consequently surface inappropriately. Habitually ignoring one of our body's main sources of intel to us over a lifetime, ironically, is a key contributor for creating weakness in both body and mind. The body experiences wear and tear or healing and wellbeing in direct relation to how we uniquely respond to emotional pressure and tension. It is not so much what we experience, but rather how we react to it, e.g. the little everyday hassles like rush-hour traffic to the bigger life-changing experiences.
Coming out of the Covid-19 Pandemic, it can be observed that we are experiencing a collective traumatization and that our nervous systems are much more rigid or chaotic from a uniquely globalizing stress. Perhaps, like me, you have noticed the narrowing window of tolerance, offloading of pain and the inability to function as we once did.
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Intuitive and Analytical Perspective
The particular strength I have as your BioEnergetic Specialist is my intuitive ability to pinpoint patterns of contributing factors related to your current health and then link those aspects to outdated programming that operates beneath the surface of conscious awareness. Initially, those core patterns were magnificently intelligent for your survival, but now they present as maladaptive behaviors that contribute to unnecessary stress, dysfunction and dis-ease. I am eager to get started assisting you in objectively analyzing your BioEnergetic work that will help alleviate or make improvements to any areas of undesirable issues and achieve your desired goals!
In our BioEnergetic Therapeutics sessions, we can free up available energy and gain greater efficiency for functioning, provide some context and resolution to those causative factors that contribute to your current stress and initiate nervous system healing. With my assistance, you can also feel empowered with the information needed to implement greater self-care, leverage heart intelligence to make wiser choices, plug up energy draining stress that reduces vitality and help you to build resilience capacity.
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I Am On Your team!
While I do consider myself a seasoned, skillful facilitator, the healing power is within you. Together we work to unlock what is essential to achieve your objectives and bring about greater coherency in your life. I am happy to join your team of support for any maintenance or refinement you desire, but you do not need to expect that your future wellness has to be dependent solely upon me. It is a joy inspiring my clients to be their best self!
BIOENERGETIC THERAPEUTICS
Throughout my entire adult life, I have personally pursued various holistic healing options for managing my own erratic health. My interest in learning more about Natural BioEnergetics was piqued by the unique, yet systematic approach of incorporating many good techniques, vibrational tools, nutritional and supplemental information available coupled with ascertaining what the individual's needs are at any given time. I am attracted to plausible scientific means of healing to be inclusive of any new things learned. In other words, the modality stays in boundaries to keep us operating safely, while not being too narrow that would mutually exclude advancement.
I had observed over the years that what worked wonders for some did nothing for others or even what formerly worked, no longer achieved the same results. I was drawn to the economy and efficiency of using only what the body needed to heal itself. In other words, there is not one perfect method or cure for everybody or even the same formula working over a lifetime.
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BioEnergetic Therapeutics can incorporate an unlimited number of concepts, time-tested proven techniques and tools, along with newly discovered ones, to achieve balance and support. Aiding clients to an objective perspective of their needs, I find it vastly stimulating in my practice to help others create a holistic path to heal themselves.
Who I Am
MY JOURNEY
I was introduced to Natural Bioenergetics™ (formerly Health Kinesiology), a branch of BioEnergetics in 2002, after my health spiraled while living in NYC and witnessing firsthand the tragic events of September 11th, 2001. It felt like that event had opened up ‘Pandora’s Box’ for me. I never thought of myself as a fearful individual, but after that, I had become fearful to engage in life and experienced physical problems such as hives, allergies, respiratory issues and a goitered thyroid.
Awakening and Self-Awareness
Keys to Healing
My own journey for life balance has helped me to understand and frame into context my own health and needs, while resolving some past trauma. Physically working on the underlying energetic weaknesses in my system has helped me balance, maintain and support autoimmune issues and eliminate allergies. I grew to understand how I had cleverly hidden from myself internal fears masked by a bravado of facing them, all the while, this price was taking a tremendous toll on my nerves. I also use BioEnergetic techniques to balance my overactive mind so that I can sleep better and let go of anxiety.
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You Care Too Much, You Shouldn't Feel that way, You're Too Sensitive!
How does an empath turn off the authentic experience of deep processing of sensory and emotional input from the environment? Since I feel everyone else's stuff, doesn't that obligate me to set aside myself and care for the other person's overriding needs? Doesn't everyone else feel as intensely as I do? An empath can attempt to ignore it, but eventually, that paradoxical state will manifest in the body with various symptoms as signs of a dysregulated and neglected nervous system. Without careful attentive monitoring of when enough is enough, the gift of sensitivity and profound feeling of everything can seem like your worst enemy. Often empaths engage in an internal warfare of self-doubt and self-attack for feeling and registering what most people do not notice. Unabated self-attack often manifests as autoimmunity issues.
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I am a highly sensitive and empathic person. About 20% of the population has a nervous system that registers sensory information deeply. Even less of humanity identify as highly empathic. In the past, I related to this as a flaw that needed to be toughened up. Since awakening to the correct understanding of how I relate to my external world, my ability to surpass survival and move into the lane of thriving is happening by consistent, small practices that have become a delightful routine. Practices with HeartMath™, AO Scan ™, qigong, being in nature, time with my pets and many other BioEnergetic options have tremendously helped me to nurture my nervous system and true state of being, which I now understand is impossible to "deprogram".
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Nurturing the Heart Of An Empathic and Highly Sensitive Person
To avoid overwhelming my sensitive system, I have become the queen of "5-minutes". This mindset is a work-around of the fact that I can become highly absorbed in whatever I am doing. So, I deliberately challenge myself to do a variety of well-rounded care for at least 5 minutes and limit a bit more time in any one activity. And to lock in the goodness, I give heartfelt acknowledgment to appreciate whatever was accomplished each day. This kind of heart nurturance is self-care that pays dividends. My investment to give attention foremost to who and what I love cultivates gratitude. In doing so, my ability to stay connected to the why of all things even during the most life crushing tragedies gives me the strength, stamina and adaptability to persevere. The pay-off of nurturing my mind, body, emotions and spirit with consistent practices is in the best interest of not only me, but also in my service to others.
Self-care is a process of attunement to stay connected. I have learned that when I use awareness to get still, it is in the moments of quiet that I begin to discern what is really my stuff. I am learning to assert the power of 'no', as a culling out the nonessentials, which goes a long way in maintaining intentional living with integrity.
The Premise Of Healing Is Finding Personal Balance
Benefit From Uniquely Designed Sessions To Meet Your Needs
I love how BioEnergetic Therapeutics offers us a variety of options to achieve your wellbeing through a scientific and targeted system of self-care. We work to reach your healing potential by accessing whatever is possible, safe and balanced.
My Interests Outside Of Work
R&R FOR BALANCE AND INSPIRATION!
BioEnergetic Therapeutics stimulates my aptitude for creativity and problem-solving when tailoring sessions for my clients. To sustain this passion and maintain balance as a BioEnergetic Specialist, I find inspiration during times of rest and relaxation.
Run, Dance, Travel
I love engaging in both active and quieter pursuits. My life has been filled with three principle hobbies: running, dancing and traveling. It's fun to weave my interests together. When I travel, I enjoy running on foreign pavement, soaking in the local culture and appreciating the arts. e.g. soaking in Széchenyi Thermal Bath in Budapest, High Tea at Fortnam & Mason in London and attending the Ballet at the Palais Garnier in Paris... yummy memories!
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Unforeseen Occurrence
After a marriage of 35 years, I am on an unexpected and uncharted course as a widow when I tragically lost my husband, Kelly, to suicide on November 1, 2021. Kelly and I grew up together and he was the love of my life since I was a girl of 16 years of age. We were both originally from suburban Northern Kentucky located within the Greater Cincinnati Area. Sharing a passion for travel and new life experiences, our journey together gave us many adventures such as living in NYC at the foot of the Brooklyn Bridge in Brooklyn Heights and DUMBO for 6 years, Barbados, the San Francisco Bay Area for 15 years and Europe.
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Our Personal Best
Throughout life's opportunities and challenges, Kelly was always a champion of my every heart's desire and he had that special talent to make things happen for me, including my pursuits to help people, rescue greyhounds, run marathons, and on it went.
Over the years, a great appreciation of diversity and culture has complemented my education as we traveled throughout North and Central Americas, Caribbean, Europe and the Mediterranean. Kelly and I visited many megacities, yet the City of Light was our preference together having visited Paris many times, and I ran my last full 26.2 marathon on Parisian streets. We also spent time with my parents on several American cross-country road trips. What a privilege it has been visiting National Parks and World Heritage Sites.
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Throughout marriage, we participated in various local and global volunteer programs and assignments in Kentucky, NYC and in the countries of Panama and Barbados. Kelly had said his most rewarding experience was participating in hurricane relief work in Puerto Rico. We also were engaged in ‘Special Volunteer Bible Educational Work’ within the Metropolitan Area of San Francisco. Currently, I continue to offer myself as Bible Educator to any interested in learning what the Bible really teaches.
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Suicide Makes Everything Go Sideways
Now in widowhood, I am being reintroduced to who I am without Kelly and learning myself anew. Suicide loss challenges every fiber of who I thought that I was and what I thought that I knew, believed and trusted. To survive it, the boundaries of my heart have been tested and stretched to hold the space for compassion and develop or refine all of the heart qualities. With pensive, contemplative prayer, I am engineering my life and career to reflect who I am at heart and align my intentions and thoughts with what is there. To fill my life with heart-friends and to enfold meaning into my experiences.
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It seemed that within the first weeks following the loss of Kelly, I had singular clarity about everything. Possibly, it will take me the rest of my life to truly grasp what I intuitively knew. One of those insights was that I would survive. I didn't know how, but I set determination that I would stay upright and keep one foot moving in front of the other.
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be present and show up for myself and others!
When life hands us change, learning to flow through the tougher moments is synonymous with becoming a meaning-maker. To pare down to what really matters and why. To set the intention to let the rest go. We can honor what has been lost to us by treasuring the lessons learned and by appreciating how the past facilitates this very moment and by absorbing the rich texture around us to live wholeheartedly. We do this when we embrace faith, hope and love. It is the bedrock of all the courageous moments.
When Kelly died, my life instantaneously vanished. Immediately, the enormity and significance that life as I knew it was forever gone was forced upon me. His suicide made me question my own existence. Each and every step taken since that life-altering moment has strained my faith, hope and love. The supreme effort that I am making continues to be well worthwhile because it dignifies my Creator, existence and integrity.
Valuing heartfelt Connections And Belonging
It has taken everything that I am, have, and have been given, including all that I have done, am doing and others have done for me, not to allow Kelly's death to hijack my life. It could be so easy to give in and give up. No! I am a believer in never say never. I have come to appreciate there is always a way.
Rather than his death ending my life, I am in the process of rebirthing myself. I have even had a couple of longtime wishes fulfilled recently when I went to the Isle of Capri with my oldest friend, visited new friends living in South Africa, stood out on a glacier in the Swiss Alps with my mom, and finally got to see one of the great musical legends, Eric Clapton, in concert in Zurich despite the 3-times Covid cancellation/rescheduling! The lesson is this: stay curious about each step and give attention to where it leads...
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Healing Breaths​
Although Kelly and I had no children, many know my love is channeled into my "fur-family". Over the years, I have rescued four greyhounds and various kitties. My home with Dash, Lily and Mr. Collins is blessedly located near the ocean in a very healing space as you can notice with the inclusion of many Carcavelos beach photos throughout this website. Daily my dogs and I stay grounded by enjoying barefoot runs on the sand.
Sometimes, life just isn't fair and makes absolutely no sense. Suicide makes no sense. If it did, then the person at the moment of completion would have been in their right mind and could have seen or accepted other options But, in that instant of time, no matter the lead up to it, they couldn't feel in their heart that life was supportable. Fact is, all of us are needy. There is no shame in it, we are human. All of us are in need of compassionate latitude.
So when rainbows are spotted over the ocean, they remind me that all the noise and chaos in life can be quieted. In the glorious glimpse of one, peace and hope shine forth to me. Seeing the continuum of the ocean everyday helps me to refocus and reframe my life to align with the principle that "Love never fails".
Everyday I ask myself: "What would love do?"
My preferred quiet thing is curling up to read with a pot of loose-leaf tea. I love expanding my understanding of life that only deep reading and meditation can offer, such as studying the Bible. Laughter and light are also important to me, and it is vastly entertaining and illuminating to read historical-fiction and comedies of manners — love the classics such as Jane Austen, but also enjoy modern authors’ take on historical periods — or a classic movie from the Silver Screen days.
While my life has had its fill of challenges and devastating losses, I believe it is vital to cultivate a wondrous curiosity, caring interest and awe for life. I look for synchronicities manifesting, which create connections of awareness that overshadow any deficits with the abundance of gratitude. I have had to dig deep for the stimulus to integrate my grief into healing. Although untrained, I have found great relief by developing a penchant for drawing pictures of my greyhounds.
For inspiration to keep moving forward, I am a voracious reader and researcher, practicer of HeartMath™, and additionally, I dance at least 5 minutes everyday, journal, practice qigong and do cold water immersions in the Atlantic. Since becoming a widow, I started keeping a record of accomplishments, small and large, to track my growth. I have logged over 150 'victories' since November 2021!
Guiding Light
During the darkest of days, and there have been some touch-and-go moments for me, I have had to reach down deeper than I ever thought possible and figure out how to accept the realities of life. Now that I am journeying in foreign territory, literally and metaphorically, the ground I traverse is uncertain. I am learning that the heart's intelligence is the best signpost. I am not talking about the mental and emotional loops that just lead to a dead end. Rather, I am referring to the divine qualities that can only be authentically developed within the inner person. Gaining entry into the field of vulnerability is as if the secret passage of trust suddenly appears. Trust places us into the driver's seat of our own life, and flow happens as we navigate with love to overcome perils of fear.
When you feel hemmed in, stuck, no way out, my request of you is not to be too afraid of the dark. Light is always on the other side of the dark cycle. Usually the answers are there awaiting discovery, in your darkness. The reward is fulfillment and so much more. For all eternity, there will only be just one you in all of existence. Because you arrived, your life matters. Whether you are aware of it, you do make a difference everyday to someone. Open the doors to your heart and let in love, really practice feeling it.
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I hope to inspire you to aspire to
'reset and be good as new' living wholeheartedly!
Since June 2019, I have been living in Portugal near Lisbon in a beach flat beautifully renovated by Kelly. It is not in spite of enduring the twists and turns and crushing blows along my journey, but rather because of them, I am choosing to stay connected and not numb out and miss life. There is a reason to be if we look for it. We can survive the painful moments and ease suffering when we acknowledge that beauty still exists. But, we can miss it if we do not pause, reflect, count our blessings, stay true to ourselves and share love and kindness.
Along the roadway of my life, I am reminded that there have been many faces marking the miles for me. There are endurance runners still traveling with me, others who did a leg of the race and handed onto me the baton, and some were cheerleaders, and then there were acquaintances who showed up right when I needed someone to hand me refreshment. Indeed, I have been blessed with people, family and heart-friends who have touched my heart and made a difference in my journey. I am deeply appreciative for these connections.
I have kept my eyes open and have found many heartfelt answers. I am striving to keep life simple, but rich with experience because to me, heart is what matters. Having the privilege of receiving many gifts in life, I feel honored to add my heart to that and pay it forward!
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May love, light and laughter
be the result we create together...
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